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notes app spiral spiral

circles have no beginning or ending; they are structured but they are also taut. pressure compounds within them.

spirals are far more dynamic; the visual representation of constantly exploring new ideas, thought patterns, realms.

if you think about it, the internet is just a cycle of: hyperlinks forming  —> hyperlinks rotting —> hyperlinks forming —> hyperlinks rotting —> hyperlinks formi

is a cycle more like a circle or a spiral? is it both? is it neither?

i think that it's a good thing that, sometimes, getting to know people / creating lasting bonds / building strong communities is a difficult task.

it asks people to consider: why do i care about this? why is this important to me?

and i think that, in a lot of ways, the internet has eroded that. i find myself asking, more often than not, whether the easiness with which i am able to form connections with people matters, if those connections are sustained purely on such little effort.

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i despise the new 'liking stories' feature on instagram for this very reason. it makes me feel like my friends only interact with an echo of me, and not the full breadth of my love and respect for them.

i oscillate between bearing the entirety of my heart to a select few people and shirking at even the idea of vulnerability with the rest. it doesn’t seem sustainable (and it isn’t)

where do i end and you begin? where do you end and i begin? why does the space between those two things seem to constantly grow?